Hey, Come back!
Have you ever noticed that you are paying attention to the outer conditions presented by your choices in life instead of your thoughts that created them?
Do you choose to get dragged off center such that you can continue your own addictions to your present conditions?
If you would but stop and realize that it is pure energy unqualified by your thoughts that is the ultimate source of your existence, then you would not try to alter that energy with discordant anti-health belief systems that seem to satisfy everyone else but your self.
This quite possibly could be you looking for approval, instead of desired results.
I can remember such an occasion of my own.
It was upon the day of my marriage. I chose to marry a woman based upon a belief system surrounding what I wished for her to be, owing to the circumstance of our meeting at a seminar given by my Spiritual teacher Alexander Everett. That is yet another story. And Alexander was the Minister.
The point of this story is that when I was asked the question: ‘do you Gregory….. well, you know the rest…. Every bone in my body said no.
A swirl of thoughts coursed through my head like 50 freight trains whose engines and coal cars were on fire and howling in the wind formed by the reckless speed at which I procured them.
They sounded like this; I don’t want to be the fool in front of my teacher, I was already teaching classes on spirituality, and centering myself, what will people think of me; people will say that I mistreated her; they would call me insensitive; think me a flake.
I can tell you, that I could be at this computer all night for the rest of my life, listing the things that came into my mind…. As I with a great deal of horror heard a bleating sound pouring from my lips in the form of -I DO.
My body instantly numbed.
Do you know how it feels when something like a basket ball hits you square in the face, and there is this instant reaction of being dumbfounded, ears ringing, face stinging, eyes watering, knees weak? Well, now you know what it feels like to totally ignore your inner voice.
That marriage lasted a few short months. We are friends now, and happily, not married.
You see, I was addicted to what people thought of me, more than I was addicted to loving myself.
What are you addicted to?
What is more important than loving your self?
To what degree, in symptoms, are you ignoring your inner voice?
COME ON BACK, IT TRULY IS OK
I forgive myself,
I love myself
Be your own best friend
Bless your heart,
Gregory
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